Well, I just want to keep track of what's been goin on my life. Para when I look back to these days I have something to remember. Makakalimutin kasi ako eh. Self fulfillment na rin kasi I'm a frustrated writer. I mean, I suck at writing stuffs for others, like for our organization's & school paper, for school works, etc.
Well, moving on. I'm currently listening to my song play list here on my bed. Now I feel like "yuck, trip mo yang mga kantang yan?." I keep pressing "Next," and the player is on shuffle mode until I found a song that doesn't make me feel baduy. Hah! It just shows much has changed since I've compiled that song list almost a year ago. The mood ten months ago was so full of heartaches, and I've had enough; there's this feeling na I wanna throw up every time I press the play button on my pc (and laptop, or cellphone) unless I hit the next button to get to a better music. Here's THE play list that I've made months ago after the "tragic" (tragic? ahaha) incident that reshaped my once-blissful life:
- Binocular - Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight
- Bobby Caldwell - Heart of Mine
- Bobby Caldwell - What You Won't Do For Love
- Brian McKnight - 6, 8, 12
- Camera Obscura - French Navy
- Camera Obscura - If Looks Could Kill
- Camera Obscura - Lloyd I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken
- Barry Manilow - Can't Smile Without You
- Chicago - If You Leave Me Now
- wtf, ngayon ko lang na realize na almost a hundred songs pala yun...
Pero ayun, yung 6, 8, 12 by Brian McKnight was one of the most baduy songs I consider now. Hahaha! Notable Mentions: "Beer" by Itchyworms; Before I Let You Go - Freestyle; Stuck In A Moment by U2; I'll Be Over You by Toto; First Cut Is The Deepest by Rod Stewart; That Thing You Do by The Wonders; I Know It's Over by The Smiths; The Man Who Can't Be Moved and Breakeven by The Script; Move Along and Gives You Hell by The All American Rejects; I Miss You Like Crazy by Natalie Cole; Avalanche by Marié Digby; Keep On Loving You by REO Speedwagon (ROFLMAO!!! Power ballad?!?!?!); Not Like The Movies and After The End by KC Concepcion; Standing Still by Jewel; If A Song Could Get Me You by Marit Larsen; and Comfortable by John Mayer (actually, this song makes me sob from time to time especially the bridge: "I loved you, grey sweatpants, no make up, so perfect," lol, grabe super ang lakas ng dating sakin nung song, di ko alam kung bakit)
Pero siyempre, there are also fun songs on the list. There's my favorite house anthem "Ever After" by Bonnie Bailey; What I Like About You by The Romantics; Solo by Iyaz (definitely like this one); and Lady Gaga's Telephone, among others. You see, music seems to make everything in life better (or bitter); it really depends on what you're listening to and how it blends to your current state of mind.
Everything seems to happen unexpectedly. Take those songs above for example. Di ko akalain na mababaduyan din ako sa mga yun eventually. The people I was with a while ago, di ko inasahan na makakasama ko pala sila, and I enjoyed their company (wala pang inuman yun, take note). I mean, everything. The heavy rain that will pour on your big head during a seemingly sunny day, that's just wonderful. The friend you've made in a coffee shop, who's sooo attractive that you can't even talk properly, another unanticipated thing. It's like everything is a fortuitous event, lol. Even me, blogging here is unexpectedly happening. haha. I'm as straight as I am pero I can't keep myself from thinking that keeping an online journal is a girlish thing to do, and yet I still do it, oh well.
BTW, I've failed to write another entry on my poetry page this afternoon kasi I was having a little chat with this pretty girl on the next table... Hahaha. Wala lang, talked about random stuffs... Mostly school stuffs. I just suck on my social skills. I didn't even get to know her mobile number. Siguro kasi I'm not that interested. Getting her mobile number will just complicate my peaceful life, haha. Gulo lang yan. When I left her, I just said a simple: "See you around." These days, I just love making friends. I don't want another attachment/involvement/affair (whatever you call it). PALUSOT. haha. Pero seriously, wala rin akong lakas ng loob na ma-involve and do the move if ever super interested ako sa girl na yun. Like I said, I really suck at knowing people.
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